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You're way to young to be broken

So I'm In a good mood somehow my tension always goes up when I know I'm going to do something I love! Does this happen to anyone else. For example I get super excited when I know I'm going to eat my favorite food ^-^ Right now I should be getting ready to go to my ballet class but I'm so excited that I cant get ready LoL.before taking a shower and writing this I was watching white collar do any of you watch that show its truly amazing the writing is very witty. I just love it, but anyways the main protagonist looks like my ex  watching that show makes me miss him but moreover it's not really him I miss i guess I'm just lonely but I cheered myself up listening to "everybody loves somebody sometimes"  the Dean Martin version somehow that song always works LoL it's just I've been having a hard time for the past year and half you know when you just get into these funks well I feel like I'm there I used to have this very clear grasp on who I was and what I wanted out of life and i had this plan on how to get there I gave up a lot of things i really wanted and made a choice to go on this path and I figured I'd eventually be happy with what I choose because it was practical and the better choice and then Last year well more like in 2009 I found out I had cancer and ever since then I feel like my existence got turned upside down and up until that point I had never regretted letting go of my dreams because I knew no matter what I could make my own happiness well now I'm so confused!!!! it's frustrating so many  bad things happened to me since then and most recently I think I have to give up ballet because of a DONKEY!!! yes that's right I wreaked my parents Corvette this weekend all because a Donkey stepped into the road and I swerved to avoid it!!!! ugh so frustrating but it seems that this time I'm not ready to make the mature choice and give up something I really enjoy and makes me happy for the more practical choice. It might cause lots of people around me trouble and I hate causing people problems and being a burden but maybe just this once would be ok.....LoL how did it go from happy to gloomy >.<" well lets end this on a happy note hmmmm oh I know Yay to my wonderful family who is always there for me! Before I go I'm gonna leave you guys with a quote and something to think about!

<3 Cyndi

I think everybody should get rich and famous and do everything they ever dreamed of so they can see that it's not the answer.