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Scared.....no terrified of the pain

In fact, that's probably one of the things I'm most afraid of. Getting hurt, having your heart get broken and then dealing with it afterward. When someone is going through a hard time, whether it's a break up or dealing with depression, people tell you to move on with your life, they tell you to get over it. But these people won't understand what you're going through until they go through it themselves. That's when they'll realize how hard it is to ‘move on’ and to ‘get over’ something like this. The healing part is a tough process to go through. You know you have to get better, you know you have to do this for yourself in order to be a better person. But sometimes you think it's a lot easier to just sit there with the pain and you hope for it to go away on its own .. but it really doesn't. It only hurts even more. You have to do something about it. But you're confused because you don't know what to do. You're feeling lost and you feel like parts of you are missing. And for the longest time, I felt like that. I didn't feel whole. I felt incomplete. Confused. I was frustrated. Angry. I didn't know what to do with myself. I let myself slip even further down. I lost myself. - Besides getting your heart broken, that could probably one of the worst things to feel: To not know who you are anymore.

You just can't seem to understand yourself.

I don't want to feel that way again.